Its been good blogspot...

I have been mentioning that I am rebranding ( getting a new logo/look/ feel) and its FINALLY done! I'm beyond exciting. I feel like I've grown up and made it to the "real" photographers. Although, I'm sure that just because I have a blog site doesn't mean that... But! We've changed the blog and from now on go over to

www.weenoblog.com

for all the goodness!

Thanks blogspot for the many years!

The 1 year mark.

January 19th.


My mom went to see God last year today. I can't believe its been a year, and I can't believe the things Kellen and I have done. I got to go to India and spread my mums ash's, we moved out of my house (which was hard.. what do you do with all the yearbook and keepsakes?! thank goodness my brother moved in and I got to keep some stuff in the attic.) We went to visit Kellens family, who embraced me as their own and who I'm so grateful to have. When Jesus gives us another family, I now know why. And now we are in Portland. I'm happy. We are happy. We have a cute house, and jobs, and Weeno is getting there. 


But my sister sent me a text today, she said "the idea of a lifetime without her still seems unbearable." And my heart breaks, because its only been a year. To be honest, I'm scared, and  don't understand how to do life without her. I'm not sure how to have kids, how to raise them, how to go through the hard times in my life, and happy times. There's a hole, a void, a space that is begging to be filled. 


I'm grateful for the mom I did have, she was incredible, and I'm happy I had her for as long as I did. She was great person, and a great mother. I know I'm not the only person who's had loss in their family, and I hope I don't sound like that. I appreciate all of the comments, the words and the love that is coming through to me and my family today.


Without you, without my husband, without my friends, and certainly without God I would be a wreck, all day, every day. But I'm not. Its hard to imagine life without her, and scary to.. but she wouldn't want me to stop..


So with this. Its a new year, and I will make her proud of me.
I will be grateful.
I will do my best to make my life great and do good things.
I'll do my best not to be selfish, and put others needs ahead of mine.


And with Weeno, we have a lot of new things ahead. A new branding is on the way. Which means, this blog will no longer be, and a new website.... a new beginning. I'm hoping it will embrace me as much as I've embraced it.


So here's to learning, and being, and making the best of the worst..


Mum. I love you  & I miss you till my body aches... but I will make you proud of me.

In the Year 2012

In 2011..

I turned 25.

My mum passed away a few weeks later.

I went to India... I spread my mums ash's.

I felt the love and support around me. 

We had a large estate sale, and I packed up my things.

Got a pup. Flinty.

We left for Wisconsin.

I got to know the family I gained through marriage.

We got to go to Canada.

First trip to New York.

Worked through stuff in my marriage.

Strived after God.. and still am.

Went home for a month.

Felt like a real live photographer.

Moved to Portland.

Nested. 

Getting mentally prepared to start over.

In 2012.

I turn 26!

We are re-branding!

EXCITING!

Wondering if we will ever make it as wedding photographers.

Struggling with career choices.

Trusting God with our life choices.

Loving being married.

& Striving for.

Getting published.

Becoming photographers in the North West.

Quitting our "normal" jobs.

Its been an interesting couple of years. Kellen and I put our lives on hold to take care of my mum. And I wish I could personally thank each person who prayed for us and my family. We are so grateful. But, now Kellen and I are in Portland, and started our lives together. Finally! This year we are re-branding (I can't wait to reveal it to you!) and I'm finally putting our photography out there. I have to be honest with you all, some days I feel like a photographer, and then I look at all the amazing photographers out there and wonder if I'll make it. So for 2012 we will do our best. I will do what I feel God is asking of me, and I will take each day for what it is. So here's to 2012 and new beginnings!